Cold & Vulnerable
- Murray
Lie, lie to keep the chapel alive.
You're stuck on the outside, afraid to face in.
Beneath the skin, (beneath) a muscle tears a tad.
Now money is your prized possession.
You're not happy until every little thing fits.
You know it's true but it's your life.
All the sparkles in your eyes and everything is willful.
It's so sick. You're so fake. You're so beautiful.
Then you scream at me like a shotgun and you tell
me you were the only one who ever really gave a damn.
Right now you are forgotten. Hold me, just to sell yourself.Weather-Beaten Angels
- Ousley
I met an angel and she spoke with light, "take my hand and take my life and leave your lonely night."
Her breath was a wand; it sparkled and shined, leaking a relic from her eye.
All was resting on the face of her wrist. I feel her pulse, I feel her kiss, and I feel her swollen cyst.
As I am flown through a city of glitter, I am granting halos on the bitter.
I lost it, I lied. I gazed in this light with cherub feathers. I gave in, I gave in, I gave in. Weathered.
Scarred layers of skin, fade and burn under the soul's shade (you'll never get mine).Deflect
- Murray
All of the plastic queens have burnt in your favor,
from the jealousy that we all gave her. Broken hearts
from the start and now we shiver. All the black in
her eye has left me censored. All the happy people
have come undone. All of their smiling faces will
beat as one. All the frogs that I saw were left behind.
All the flowers (they fall) will be drowned.
Plastic dolls are burnt and we had a time. All that
was left was me and all of it was mine. All the smiling
people have gone insane from all the flowers they
saw (left in the rain).
I want you right now. I need you right now.
I'll kill you right now. I feel you right now.Skrews and Nails
- Lucigen
Stop me now before I bleed. I keep sinking to death.
Try to push me out of this hole. I can't keep control.
Now you throw her against the floor. Yell at her and
then some more. All of your kids sit and stare at her.
This is it. This will be the end.
Could I touch you? Would it heal me? I'm still crawling
toward your beauty with liquid palettes of my chastity.
I wish you meant nothing to me.
Save it, hold it, screws and nails.
So very. You wish you could be too.
So dirty, It keeps me from killing you.Innocence
- Murray
But still I've found no one
to carry out all of my love
But still I've found no one
who cares that much all about me
But still I do not mind
I guess that's wrong with me
But still I am that scab
that rug burn on your knee
I have the innocence
the kind that you want, the kind that you need
fulfill this need of mine
and I'll fulfill all of your greed
I'm alone all the time
I'm tired of it, but I guess that's me
But still I sit upon a dried up lake
wanting
The other side of confusion is filled with tears from your pain
The solitude of loneliness that abides in you
Until you look back and realize everything has changed
The penetration is getting harder
But still you look back and realize everything is the same
The penetration is getting weakI Pull Away
- Ousley
I'm afraid of never dying. I'm ashamed,
I'm so bored with crying. I'm stained when
your sky is blue. I'm abashed and I'm boring
you. I'm not sad. (I'm not sad)
I'll grieve when you cleanse my wounds. It's
too bright under the faded moon. Those tears,
they recede too quickly. I need the black so
you can't redeem me. I'm not sad. (I'm not sad)
I'm a lover. I'm a loner. If I can see the ponds,
I see the clovers. In this heaven, I lay. It tries to kindle
so I pull away.
I'm lonely when I'm making love.
I know it but I'm not thinking of.....
I'm not sad. (I'm not sad)Broken Mirrors
- Ousley
Reflection 1: Apparent
Flesh, grass, and scattered halo seeds.
Breath, wind, and all that spread our leaves.
Blood, sap, and infected honey stings.
Scent, mist, and infants sprouting wings.
Apis Mellifera:
I want to drown in a river of your sweat.
I want to feel your hands and the heat of your breath.
Swallow my lies so I can feel your face.
I need a taste.
Lily:
They want to rape my soul, so I let them taste it.
She wants to make me whole?
No, I'll never fake it.
Reflection 2: Fractured
Sprinkled semen on the soil of tears.
Grated roots from all our broken mirrors.
Rake the moss into a broken mend.
Draped and dressed inside a virgin's skin.
Lily:
Forever burning are the daisy stems I grew.
With all of these honey stings, our natural roots show through.
Now we're in the perfect light; I rest my eyes on you.
We sleep on fertile soil, but never seem to bloom.
Loam:
Does any paradox surrender to itself?
This will always haunt you in ways you couldn't tell.
Our poison garden is a riddle in the spell.
In the flooded flowers are the scattered wings of those who fell.
Apis Mellifera:
I'd fall and crawl inside your cocoon
I'd choke on the rain I stole from you.
I'd give you thorns and morning dew to spread my hives inside of you.
Reflection 3: Incantation
The breaking mirrors, the art they'll reflect;
Your grated roots and your defects,
Your bitter seeds and your small neglects,
Your broken stems and all you'd never detect.Painted Smile
- Webb
It upsets me to see why they still exist
in our free world of so-called self-loathing.
I can't help to think why I'm here.
Satisfied with a small piece of contentment,
I drag on every day as if it were my last;
taking the time to meet you, to meet them in my
personal limbo. The skies turn colors since I was
five and my imagination grows with every touch
of light that I encounter. Sadly enough, I still miss
my heart. I don't remember what exactly saved me,
but you'll never feel my pain again (running through
your crooked fingers). You brought me down in this
shallow world. You arrested my childhood and
I showed no defense.
© 2001 Lucigen